Healing Notes from the Edge of Embodiement

Facing the Storm: Notes from the Edge of Embodiment

…That is my goal. To stop being in survival mode only to come up short 5, 10, 40 years later and recognize that my life is driven by my unresolved past. To know that today is real and I am in it as fully as possible. It sounds so simple, and for many folks, it is. For me, I feel like I’ve been struggling in the ocean in the middle of a hurricane, trying not to drown. Therapy gave me a boat, which has been much better than swallowing seawater in the relentless waves. And now I’m noticing that despite the boat feeling, and actually being, a safer place to be, I’m still in the middle of the same damn storm.

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Trauma is an echo that we continue to scream

I sat on the couch at my therapist’s office, back when we could still go into offices for therapy so I know it was before March of 2020. How much before, I won’t hazard to guess. But it wasn’t all that long ago. I don’t know what the topic of the hour was, only that I had one of those ugly crying moments as I heard myself say “if only I could make the voices…

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