Daily Write

The Liminality of Late Autumn

Late Autumn: when the air turns crisp and the leaves turn from soft greens into sharp reds and fall from limbs to land. After the first frost hits, I move through the world with far more tenderness, more tears, more depth. Despite having grown up in Florida, this time of year feels like a homecoming. And a graduation. As if all of the efforts propelling forward with the first buds of spring and blooming in…

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The Way Forward

Earth Month and Little Miss Figgy Withit

Little Miss Figgy Withit is having a growth spurt. At 6″ tall at the tip of her one and only leaf when she arrived in our mailbox, she shrunk a little within a few days. The leaf, dry and crisp, fell, and suddenly our little fig tree was bare. A sign of hope, however: one tiny green nodule about halfway up. And within a day, another where the leave once was. Less than one week…

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Enormous Grief Series

Enormous Grief

Introduction This project will not be linear. It will likely not make sense at points. It began (creatively) ten years ago and (personally) when I was nine years old and discovered that the family I had grown up in was not my family of origin. Writing about adoption has been a very unpredictable tide in my life. Sometimes I get close to the shore, and others I’m pulled out to sea. The spirit of this…

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Look Here Vade Mecum

Section Four: Remember

Sometimes when I’m struggling with less than stellar mental health, I hear a gentle voice talking me through it. Usually, a simple sentence or two nudges me enough to break out of the mental loop. Over the years, I’ve tried to capture those words.    The final section of the Look Here document, titled Remember, is a collection of those messages. When I’m struggling, I’ll read them as part of the Look Here exercise. Occasionally,…

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Routines, Habits, and Ritual Series

Habits: Back to the Basics

At first, I had the Trinity: three habits I treated with a sanctity warranted by the level of importance to my life. Write Read Spend time in nature Then I had the Core Four: Connect with others The list grew from the Sacred Seven to 11 to 12 to 15. I relied heavily on routines to accommodate the increasing behaviors I wanted to integrate into each day. My mornings were synchronized to an app designed…

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The Way Forward

The Paradigm Shift of Sustainability

When environment activism took root in the 70s, one framework it created was the Three Rs: Reduce, Reuse, Recycle. Those three words and the iconic three-arrow symbol became ubiquitous and contributed to a cultural shift. Albeit in the reverse order of what was presented. Folks focused on recycle and often skipped the first two. To be clear, it isn’t that recycling and reusing didn’t exist prior to the 70s. The ethos of repairing and repurposing has always…

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Love and Grief and Love

Harry has kidney disease. He is still eating. Still running around with joy. Super loving. He is also turning into skin and bones right before our eyes. He is so skinny. And thirsty. The vet says he could have two months or two years; hard to know how it will progress. He turned 14 this year, and I was hoping (but knowing otherwise) for him to make it to 20. Or 100. You know, whichever.…

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Look Here Vade Mecum

Section Three: How are You, Really?

The Look Here file was initially created because my perceptions can be unreliable when I’m struggling with mental health issues. I need an outside influence to tether me to reality when I can’t trust my own brain to do so. And it needs to be something specific to what happens in my world when things are starting to untether. The tool needs to be available 24/7, so it can not strictly rely on talking to…

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Routines, Habits, and Ritual

Creating sacred space

In her sermon titled We Shall Go Forth, Reverend Lo from the Unitarian Universalist Church in Eugene speaks of wanting to build a wall of lamentation, a place to help with “the inlay of compounded fractures and compounded grief in our lives. There’s something about that ritual of writing down one’s prayers or wishes, or even the things one wishes to let go of or release, and placing them in the cracks of a wall.…

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The Way Forward

Single-Use Plastics, Multi-step solutions

One of the mental fallacies I’ve worked on reframing has been the idea that every change I make must be all or nothing. I’m either sedentary or I’m walking for 30 minutes every single day. Eating fast food or cooking wholesome healthy meals three times a day. Not drinking any water or drinking some complicated formula’s worth of ounces each day. This approach has never worked for me. Not once. And I tried for decades.…

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